I regret everything I have done until now. I regret going to school. I regret taking the decisions regarding my career. I regret not going out of Delhi, though I know I would have regretted otherwise. I regret going to a girl’s college, I would have regretted otherwise anyway. I regret buying this dress instead of that!
After a lot of introspection, I’m unable to find the reason for my frustration and regrets. That’s why the title of this post, to pacify and console myself.
I have to find some other way to kill my time else, I know I might get mad. I have decided to do loads of things to do, but 5 days on, all I did was self-analysis. Help me, please. Suggest me what to do, no, rather suggest me how to stick to do what I decide. Imagine, I’m having trouble managing my leisure time!
I have bought loads of books. Going on with my latest fetish of reading Indian authors, I have come to the conclusion that I have to curb this fetish. These new books by self- proclaimed authors are nothing but typical Hindi movie stories, garnished with self-experienced madness. Anyway, I don’t know why I’m taking out my frustration here. Simply, I should be reading, as I have decided, classics by Charles Dicken and Oscar Wilde, and get a true taste of classic English literature.
2) Computer Games
I have downloaded and installed hell lot of games but played none. My self-analysis has overtaken every damn interest of mine! Anyway, I enjoy playing all sort of games, so please suggest some good games!
I hate watching movies in the theatre. I have anyway downloaded loads of moves, and seen them as well. But it’s not a very satisfactory way of killing time. I’m really frustrated, I realized it while writing this. I hate romantic movies, so please avoid suggesting them
4) Learning to drive
I’m afraid of driving. But still, I ‘ll do it this vacations. My Maruti 800.
5) Something useful
Ya ya..I’m learning some computer language. I won’t discuss much it, not very fond of it anyway.
I think I’ll stop here, else I might start hating myself as well, which I know I can’t, but why take chances!